Thread:Shanoko/@comment-5603476-20170211020127

Hi Shanoko.

You may or may not have noticed that I posted a bunch of emotionally-fueled, expletive laden messages in follow up to your recent message about "more work being done here with the new admins than dycaite has done in his lifetime", or whatever it was you said. The messages have now been deleted, as has the thread itself.

I want to take a moment to explain my actions. I have poured hours upon days upon weeks upon months into this project. Ever since we broke off from Wikia, things have been a constant rollercoaster of emotions for me. As someone who suffers from high-end OCD and anxiety, this has taken quite the toll on me over the years.

I thought I had finally come to terms with this place existing, though. Things were looking up. And then you came along and tore that wound right back open. When you attack something that is so precious, so close to one's heart, it is only natural to expect them to react in anger, though I recognise that this does not excuse my unprofessionality.

So, I want to apologise for my actions, but I also want you to recognise that what you said to me today was incredibly unfair and hurtful, though you may not have realised it at the time. To put so much work into something, on a daily basis, and then to have someone discredit all that (even if that someone is someone you've never met before) is soul crushing; I've been sitting here at the computer now for over an hour, just wallowing. All thanks to a single message from someone I've never met before.

You may not realise that you have the power to hurt someone so much with a single message, but you have done. You have deeply hurt me today.

Please. I have had enough torment because of all this. Please just let us co-exist in peace. 